i took the sky train for the first time!
i think i should go for "build-self-confidence course" if its ever available. i kept having the idea that i cant do well for prelims cos i did badly for my mid years, my grades are dropping and its going to drop for prelims too, i am stupid and that cant be changed. and so after every paper i'll think that i did badly, (actually its only for chem right now) and i'll get even more demoralized and i wont want to study. ): im kind of telling myself to stop touching my econs notes and not waste time on something that i cant freaking score. the thing is, i understand econs but i cant score for it, i dont understand wth mathematics is all about, why we are playing with those numbers? its not going to affect our lives if the equation of the curve changes or whether one curve touches the other. so what if we can draw a curve using dy/dx, theres something called graphamatical that can do the job for us!
im looking forward to my holidays in december! :D im planning to take up baking lesson (who wants to join me please raise ur hand!) and im joining my sister in salsa lesson too. plus my thailand and batam trip! i hope i can get a part time job as a relief teacher and see how is it like to teach. the pay isnt that bad either. i shall go to MOE and show my interest soon.
some idiots should understand the fact that im having my exams. its no use if YOU ask me how is it and ask me to study hard for it when YOU invite YOUR friends over to chit-chat everyday. its fine if YOU dont disturb me, but YOUR voice is like thunder, everyone can hear it. its okay if they come over but not in the middle of the night when i am trying to sleep. its freaking annoying to keep waking up at night by the noise. if this is going to go on for my alevels, theres a high possibility that i'll go down and shout at your friends and ask them to get lost and be considerate cos my whole family wants to sleep. who cares whether they are doctors or engineers, this is my house and i want PEACE. i hate YOU.
my mom has the funniest siblings on earth. my uncle called from jordan and ask me what is he supposed to do for his wedding, like what are all the custom or whatever. like HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW? haha. i told him to remember to pack alot of angbaos for all of us and one extremely big one for me. then he send me a design of his wedding invitation that looks like a christmas card to me. haha. and my aunt just called me and asked me how to cook CURRY. i dont think i can even cook a decent meal for myself right now.
