candy to my eyes

2007-11-01T00:26:00.000+08:00

THIS IS THE LAST ENTRY FOR THIS BLOG.

IVE MOVED. :)

2007-10-31T00:46:00.000+08:00

we suck at taking photos.

Half of my inbox got deleted and i have no idea what happened to it. :(

I dont know whats wrong with me. I took the shuttlebus towards the wrong direction and ended up in PGP when im supposed to go to SOC1 for lesson. i ended up spending half an hr on travelling and was 15mins late for class. am i stupid or what?!

A call from the BF and he is coming back one day earlier. YAY-ness. the night before he left, he dropped by and we had supper together. HE TOLD ME THIS FREAKY ENCOUNTER along the alley and im damn scared now. im practically RUNNING home nowadays cos i dont want to bump into ghosts. :( i can totally picture a long hair lady with no emotions standing on the roof top waiting to scare me. :( anyways, he was the sweetest cos he passed a supp card to me that night. how come he wasnt worried that i might just swipe the card and runaway before he comes back??? HEEHEEHEE..

Met up with J today! supposed to teach her Maths but i think we spent half the time making loads of noise and laughing like Mad Cows. Now she wants an older BF so she can get a supp card too. I think she is turning crazy alr cos she can't stop asking me to get married. Wait till i start making fun of her infront of James. HAHA.

If you are wondering, that isnt my hand. We have no idea who did that.

2007-10-30T00:27:00.000+08:00

Day 2 without my baby and my day started off so badly!

i had tutorial at 9AM and i totally slept my whole way through until milan called at 11AM and asked me why i didnt support his presentation. i totally jumped out of my bed and rushed to school for NK at 12NOON and i realised sharon tried to msg and call me the throughout the whole lesson. im SO HORRIBLE. i kept thinking that its holiday alr. haha.

after school we went to Holland V for dinner. :) i think im such a boring person, everytime i go there i will either have my meal at BREKO or CRYSTAL JADE. but well it was fun. :)

I MISS YOU. im so glad u called, but please COME BACK TO ME SOON! :(

2007-10-28T01:48:00.000+08:00

we suck, we shouldnt sit next to each other during lectures EVER AGAIN because we can never stop talking/taking photos/facebooking etc. had to go back to school for a 3hrs make up lecture. it was like so bloody torturous.

i finally returned back to the i-feel-quite-relax-and-slack mood. term paper is finally over, just left with OM presentation and fna presentation and annual report. im going to reward myself by taking a break from schwork from thurs-mon. :)

g'ma's 71st bday dinner today! she is blessed with so many kids and g'children that we had to occupy five tables. :) my bro was the only one who couldnt make it but no loss, cos the service was SO HORRIBLE. it took like half an hr for the JUICES to come. we ordered orange juice but watermelon juice came instead.

why do i always look OLDER than him? damn gay, but i have nothing to say since we grew up together.

fat baby eithan. adorable. :)

BABY IS LEAVING TMR MORNING. :( 6DAYS IS DAMN LONG. COMPARED TO THE FACT THAT I SEE HIM 30DAYS A MONTH.

2007-10-24T23:57:00.000+08:00

i sleep with this cute little thing every night ever since i got it. :) it was love at first sight when my mom brought it home for me. yes, my MOM. :):):)

RA: u must be very honoured because i look at u everynight before i sleep.

i hate university. :( i dont rmb sacrificing my sleep for anything (well, except for clubbing, mahjong and sneaking out with andy) and i stayed up till 4am to complete my term paper last night.

i looked into the mirror today and i think im turning uglier and looking older. :( is it true that when u hang out with pretty girls, u will look pretty too? :(

2007-10-24T01:58:00.000+08:00

IKEA just mailed me 2008 catalogue!! so many new things tt i want to buy. i know this sounds so auntie, but i love going down to IKEA to collect my free drinks! :D

term paper is KILLING ME. i have NEVER written a 10pages report in my entire life.

2007-10-21T21:49:00.000+08:00

grandpa's bday today. i was VERY reluctant to go but it didnt turn out too bad. i hate to visit THAT side of the family because theres ZERO cousin and basically every one of them disgust me. we were supposed to VISIT grandpa but 4 of us ended up sitting around the table playing games, taking photos and talking about childhood. we were so bored that my sister and i challenged each other to see who can eat more longevity buns.

my family photo, finally. as u can see, the two women tried to use me to cover up their fats.

my sis trying to be a retard by posing with those flowers that can be found on the longevity buns. and my mom trying to be another retard by acting like a kid. NO WONDER I TURN OUT TO BE THE WAY I AM.

WE ARE ADDICTED TO ARCADE.

2007-10-20T01:56:00.000+08:00

shopping day! waited for the Bf cos he had to go back to the office for awhile and headed down to bugis. :D basically the first stop was the ARCADE and we wasted alot of time+money over there. went to find a formal top for my presentation [which is quite stupid because ive finished most of my presentations] and its so hard to find something that attracts the both of us because HE HAS BAD TASTE.bugis village is infested with BENGZZZZ and its damn annoying.

7th months! :) my bf is so wonderful and im turning into a spoilt brat because of that.

2007-10-19T00:16:00.000+08:00

US

US

US

THEM

PEIYI

PEIYI

& PEIYI

ade and angie

best friend :)

2007-10-18T23:18:00.000+08:00

during marketing lecture today, we were doing promotion and Ang showed us this video.

watched the brothers today! its like the 3rd movie this week. andy lau should appear more in the show! im slacking too much!! term paper next week and i have not started on it. :(

2007-10-18T02:06:00.000+08:00

cam whoring is our hobby. tonnes of photos taken but too bad blogger doesnt want to cooperate.

2007-10-17T23:47:00.000+08:00

1) at 2pm, mom called to asked me to buy 4D for her, and her phone call woke me up
2) msg andy and decided to watch lust caution at 415pm
3) tidy up my room, washed up and waited for him
4) he was super late and only picked me up at 4pm!!!
5) i realised that i forgot to buy 4D for my mom, and i wouldnt be able to make it if i buy after the show.
6) so we split up and i went to get popcorn+drinks while he went to buy 4D
7) he bought 4D for himself too to make the trip worthwhile
8) managed to catch the movie on time
9) after the show, he said "2 hours for THIS??" but i thought it was such a great movie.
10) soup spoon for dinner! :)
11) when he reached home, he called and told me that HE STRIKE 4D AGAIN. this is damn random i cannot take it. he should thank my mother.
2nd prize, starter and consolation. is this bday luck or what?!?!

im trying to get the legacy stripe wristlet but i cant find it anywhere in sg. :(

2007-10-15T23:28:00.000+08:00

so gay. but he wouldnt dare to say that he doesnt like anything that i got for him. meal was supposed to be MY treat, but he paid since he unknowingly strike TWO 4D numbers and won ~~some~~quite a sum of $$ last night. hugo, SK jewelery (i know its damn gay but i bought him some manly stuff!)and tees. i hope he likes them :)

2007-10-15T00:05:00.000+08:00

to the most important person in my life, im not sure whether u will read this because u seldom come online, HAPPY BIRTHDAY. :) i love the way you make me feel so comfortable, i love the way you make me feel so blessed. and no matter what others say/think about us, im sure we will keep this love strong.

2007-10-13T22:40:00.000+08:00

went shopping with j yesterday! :) finally got the BFs (boyfriend and bestfriend) birthday presents. all thanks to her if not i wouldnt know what to get. we shopped for like the whole afternoon, got so tired and sat down to wait for our bfs to knock off from work.

nowadays when i visit my colleagues, they will flood me with questions. hows boss? where is boss? what are you getting for boss for his birthday? did boss tell you to come over to my house on monday? BLAH BLAH BLAH. SO ANNOYING. why dont they ask anything about ME.

2007-10-11T23:07:00.000+08:00

beautiful thursday :D

1. caught resident evil with HONEYBUNNY
2. my tests are finally over, IT1003 test was like a JOKE (VJ chem paper kind of joke)
3. shopped for HONEYBUNNY'S present and FINALLY got something to get in mind

HONEYBUNNY thinks that im a chatterbox and i should get the LITTLE MISS CHATTERBOX tshirt. i think he cannot stand the way i talk talk talk talk talk talk talk talk talk nonstop.

[edit]OMG my beautiful thursday just got destroyed because HONEYBUNNY just BURST my hope. its not like a POKE burst, its like a KABOOOOM burst. now i dont know what to get for him anymore. :( maybe i should just listen to him and MAKE him a card. i dont know why he insists on getting a piece of crap. SAVE ME. give me some suggestions.

why must they send my HONEYBUNNY to work overseas. :(

2007-10-09T00:00:00.000+08:00

HELLO J, MUST U PUT MY FULL (FAKE) NAME ON UR BLOG! ITS SUPPOSED TO BE A SECRET! I KNOW I PANGSEH U BUT U CANNOT BE SO EVIL!

Sch is turning into a better place. or rather, my moodswing period is over. my sis came back from taiwan with alot of food for me! i love those traditional bing3..

looks normal but guess what...

its chocolates in interesting shapes..

2007-10-07T22:10:00.000+08:00

caught the nanny diaries and the detective over the weekends. :)
it is very nice of bf to recommend the detective without knowing whats the show is all about. i thought, wahhh aaron kwok damn charming, must watch! and guess what, i spent half the time hiding behind my cardigan. WHY??? watch it to find out. nanny diaries was quite disappointing, scarlett johansson and alicia keys didnt impress me.

I HATE SCHOOL. WHATS UP WITH REPORTS, REPORTS AND MORE REPORTS????

2007-10-07T12:52:00.000+08:00

a layer of fries, chilli, another layer of fries and curry sauce. eating habit which i have never seen before.
by the time he is ready to take the first bite, i've alr finished up my whole foldover.

2007-10-03T21:20:00.000+08:00

monday was like the most horrible day ever since i stepped into nus.
i was fucking sick. i had to rush to school for a presentation at 9AM, all the graded assignments/test were BADLY DONE. i totally dislike english and i think that im going to fail and take it for another semester. i swear i will do any other modules other than NK1001. my mom scolded me when i got home. i had to study for financial & accounting test and prepare my presentation for the next day. i broke down, i cried for the longest time over the phone, and i was still feeling so sick so i went to bed without studying/preparing for my speech.

I FEEL LIKE QUITTING SCHOOL AND RUNNING AWAY FROM HOME. I HATE WRITING, I SUCK AT WRITING. MY ONLY HOPE IS ON FINANCIAL AND ACCOUNTING.

2007-09-30T01:47:00.000+08:00

spent the day at gma's house! :D:D:D:D:D played mahjong + watched soccer + ate alot + watched dvds.

i think army is harmful! both my cousins who entered army picked up smoking.
my gma is so adorable, she asked me out-of-this-world qns like, when am i getting married, why i nv bring bf to her house for so many years and even asked me to move over to stay with her. and she kept feeding me when i was playing mj. i rmb when i was young i used to stayover at her place and she would bring me around amk/bishan.. and now she cant even get out of the chair on her own. ): i miss making bakchang, all sorts of kuehs and baking with her!

SIAN.. im down with a flu.

2007-09-29T00:46:00.000+08:00

i dont know whats happening but i know i will still love you.
you know, love is forever.

):

2007-09-28T17:23:00.001+08:00

crashed smu ytd. it was like a goodfriend+bestfriend gathering with ade, fishball, ra, sam, justina & steph cheong. it was my first time stepping into smu and i felt like there wasnt any uni life at all. it felt more like being in a company building and everyone is just holding a laptop around, talking about work, work & more work. and i cant believe the whole SMU shares ONE "canteen" which is.. kopitiam. i dont know is it just ME or what but the whole school is so quiet and everyone is just busy mugging in the library! anw, photos with ra and ade.. upload to fb soon! :)

their mid term break is coming and its going to be their turn to visit NUS. they can have the pleasure of taking unlimited shuttle bus rides around nus, travelling to different fac canteens, and climbing lots of stairs and hills. hope there will be a bazaar when they come down! :D cant wait!

2007-09-26T22:20:00.000+08:00

yes, this is sbs bus. looks nice, feels nice but I HATE THIS BUS. first, i cant even sleep cos the chair is damn low and the bus ride to school is more than an hour. secondly, there are limited no. of seats available. and lastly, the music is damn loud and annoying!

i woke up with a fever and i miss my mom. day 5 of not seeing her. ): she spent her midautumn night having steak without asking me along! im having a sorethroat and am feeling sick i want my mommy to take care of me. ))):

2007-09-25T17:05:00.000+08:00

will you cry along with me when i cry?

2007-09-24T20:40:00.000+08:00

the girls

and more girls

all the girls

bloody hell, my ah lian dress.

had lunch at DTF again! and we sat on the same table as the previous time. we ordered like 40+6 xiaolongbaos+those with prawns inside. mel = even more b.a.d after lunch. it was a day filled with tonnes of gossips and army talks. sigh i should just migrate my nus tables and chairs to smu.

macs followed by mos is so unhealthy. i feel like ageing very rapidly. :(

i hate projects. )):

2007-09-23T23:18:00.000+08:00

sianZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZz i think im turning into an ahlian. like, SERIOUSLY. it was so kind of me to offer my bro some krispy kreme and it was unfortunate of me to bump into my #1 most hated person in the room.

the first thing he said was, "HOW COME U DRESS LIKE AN AHLIAN?" &*@#*(@#&*(@# feeling damn insulted, i walked to the mirror and pushed my fringe back with my middle finger. and thats not enough!! "AND UR BAG LOOKS DAMN AHLIAN TOO." omg thats like the ultimate alr, so i told him, "you only give me 550$ a mth, i can only go to bugis and get an AHLIAN bag and not a GUCCI bag at paragon!" booo. so.. whatever he said makes me feel like ive turned into a full time ah lian.

urgh. i think i will never ever stop hating him. with everything thats happening right now, i suspect that my house is going to turn upside down anytime soon. my mom hasnt been home for 2 nights and i miss her. ):

2007-09-22T20:03:00.000+08:00

great the one week break is here. bf is busy with his work during this weekend and its a good time for me to catch up with all necessary sleep. i came home ytd afternoon and slept, met him for supper, came home & slept all the way till 3.30pm this afternoon. SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP. and it feels good. :)

i cant really complain that uni is stressful. i still get to SHOP, see my bf everyday, catch 2-3 movies a week, spend time catching up with my friends etc... and on top of that i still manage to do my tutorials. but i have not turned up for any PRU meeting because bf is more impt than cca. cca in uni is disgusting, the first pru meeting ended at 11pm.

iheartholidays! i am alr in a holiday mood and i cannot imagine that i have to meet up for projects on mon-wed.

2007-09-20T20:44:00.000+08:00

FUCK YOU.

one more day and its gonna be the holiday.

2007-09-19T22:56:00.000+08:00

from bf! :) it was a happy happy day even thou he got called back to work. went down to help him for awhile and got to experience his working environment. :)

mel is back in sg! :) he never fails to bring good stuff back for us and this time round, its DONUTS! donuts = happy jmg. i think the amt of time mel spend in sg:overseas is 1:5. first its NATIONAL sailing and now its NATIONAL service.

i secretly think that i should set up a relationship consultant agency in the future.
J i hope ure feeling better. sometimes u have to be strong and defend urself, dont let him bully you!

2007-09-19T15:44:00.000+08:00

6th perfect months together. and many more to come. :)
[and i still havent figured who wrote that on my lunchbox!]

Precious is
When your son throws his arms around you, and you both roll onto the floor, tickling, giggling, laughing, poking, bumping, hooting, bouncing, cuddling, cackling, twirling, and you just know deep inside you, that in another 4 years, this all might be “NOT A COOL THING TO DO”.

-Karen Cheng

2007-09-18T22:44:00.000+08:00

i did (ANOTHER!) personality and values self assessment for one of my module.

scale range 1-5, my negative affectivity (3.7) is greater than my positive affectivity (3.6) just but o.1! AMAZING!

Positive Affectivity (PA): The tendency to experience positive emotional states. Associated with the Big Five dimension of ‘extroversion.’ People high in positive affect can usually be described as being outgoing, talkative, sociable, assertive, and such.
Negative Affectivity (NA): The tendency to experience negative emotional states. Associated with the Big Five dimension of ‘neuroticism.’ People high in positive affect can usually be described as being distressed, hostile, irritable, nervous, and such.

which means im equally SOCIABLE and HOSTILE.

my LEADERSHIP FRAME (scale range 1-48):
STRUCTURE(architect): 44.00
PEOPLE/HUMAN RESOURCE(catalyst): 35.00
which are way above class average
and the other two are POLITICAL and CULTURE, which i scored extremely low as expected. haha

• Architects emphasize rationality, analysis, logic, facts and data. They lead by careful consideration of the evidence, and work to avoid the distortions of emotions and politics.
• Catalysts emphasize the importance of people’s needs and feelings, and lead through relationship building, coaching, motivation, teamwork, listening, supporting, and empowering.

i finally got to meet up with jel in school. visited the FASS canteen, which means ive conquered all the canteens in nus! tried the UDON and it tasted like crap! looks like something which i can cook (and obviously i CANT cook). but it was a great time catching up with her, gossiping as usual.
sometimes i feel quite uncomfortable in school because the rest of the girls are all from the same jc. its quite hard to adapt to this new environment and it gets tiring to try to understand a NEW person. after talking to jel, i realised that I AM NOT ALONE. maybe we are abnormal, or maybe it is supposed to be this way.

2007-09-17T22:19:00.000+08:00

and i forgot to post the photo my aston martin. CHIO. j thinks im a spoilt brat cos i want this car for my own. she has totally given up on me alr. heh :D

bro&cousin, look at all the chocolate on her mouth.

aBIGframe on my wall

team work

i feel like blogging but because school is so boring, i blog about really random stuff.

i am going to start saving and buy a camera for myself!! was discussing with ra the other day and well.. we have zero knowledge about cam. oh gawd i miss my 2 cams. i should have treasured them.

and i am so troubled over what to get for him cos his bday is nearing!

alright, off to do MORE work. its never ending. ):

2007-09-16T15:47:00.000+08:00

<3 i have fat cheeks

we caught i now pronounce you chuck and larry and it was hilarious! heh :D but its quite unfair cos there are like hot chicks in lingerie but no hot guys at all. instead, there are like fat naked old man which obviously, isnt very pleasant to look at.

i am a selfish girlfriend. ): all these while i had just been seeking attention from him and expecting him to be the most romantic+caring+understanding man on earth but i did not realised i havent been there for him at all. ok i admit that i have a mindset that he should be old and independent enough BUT.. i suck.

i am such a crybaby and i think its frightening off my bf.

and to my dearest ade, im not even sure whether you have the time to read this.. cheer up. :D you have to let go of this burden in your heart [and fill it with me instead heh :)] drop by my place soon, i havent met up with u ever since school started! you have not yet seen my new room! i will fill it with eclairs for you. i miss you pretty girl.

2007-09-16T01:45:00.000+08:00

iamabadgfiamabadgfiamabadgfiamabadgfiamabadgfiamabadgfiamabadgf

2007-09-14T23:46:00.000+08:00

yay retail therapy-ed today. got a haircut and watched rogue assassin. :D:D:D:D:D it was all happy until i came back and found out that i only have less than ahundredbucks to survive on for the rest of this month.

2007-09-10T22:30:00.000+08:00

i finally met & bump into 2 of favourite girls ytd! :D
my bf bought me durian+chocolate mooncake.. more like i walk all the way to mariott with ra to get the mooncake and he paid for it. yay thanks to clara tan i get 20% discount. :D i love discounts!
he is acting like a little boy and refused to cut his hair! blah... he is trying to compete with me and see whose will grow faster.
the mad man better dont harass me anymore if not im going to report to the police.
I HATE MARKETING TUTORIAL.
we saw a shooting star today! it was SOOOOOOO bright. :D (he claims that its too bright to be a shooting star, then what?! UFO???)
well, IM GOING TO PRAY HARD ON WEDNESDAY FOR MY FAVOURITE GIRL.

2007-09-05T02:00:00.000+08:00

i am becoming more and more unfriendly. i mock at *'s friendster profile, i laugh at ** for being so odd, i cant get along with *** for my group project etc. and the thing is... none of the ppl whom i hang out with bitch about others and i am like an evil witch finding something to bitch about everyday.

school is getting so boring, we can sit around for 3 hrs waiting for the next lesson to start and not do anything at all. maybe just visit the toilet, travel to another faculty to eat and thats it.

i miss sam&fishball with their most up to date juicy gossips. and how we discuss about eyecandies in school and bathe together after PE every week. i miss relying on claratan for everything. i miss the boys who are always so helpful to carry our stuff and to reserve seats for us during lectures. ): where can i find another JMG. ):

if i knew things turns out to be this way, i wouldnt want alevels to end.

2007-09-03T23:30:00.000+08:00

i really dont know what to believe. can people be trusted?

i dislike english ALOT. because of english, my classmates end sch at 2pm on mon and 11am on fri while i end sch at 6pm and 2pm on the respective days.

we have to so much more to go thru to be suitable for each other.

2007-09-03T00:33:00.000+08:00

i am still pondering over the same few questions after all these while.

hm... sigh.

2007-08-28T23:06:00.000+08:00

central forum is our FAVOURITE hangout in school. theres like a bazaar there everyday. we go there before school starts, during break and after school. sounds crazy but I LOVE EATING OTAH AND ISCREAM YOGHURT. we love iscream yoghurt so much that we even asked the auntie whether she can set up a stall in our school. u get to choose frozen fruits and they will blend it into yoghurt for you, and its only $2!! :D

its wednesday tmr! and i love wednesdays. because wednesday means no school and my lovelovelovelovelove doesnt work on every wednesday just for me.

2007-08-25T02:54:00.000+08:00

I HATE ASSIGNMENTS, I HATE PROJECTS, I HATE PRESENTATIONS, I HATE IVLE, I HATE THE SCHOOL EMAIL, I HATE ENGLISH COURSE, I HATE DOING RESEARCH,I HATE E-RESERVES, I HATE SPENDING SO MUCH MONEY ON TEXTBOOKS, I HATE PRINTING NOTES, I HATE IT WHEN WE HAVE TO HAND UP OUR WORK, I HATE UNIVERSITY. I HATE MNO LECTURE. I DISLIKE AMAZON.COM, EBAY, MACDONALDS AND ANY OTHER BIG COMPANIES. I HATE SPENDING SO MUCH TIME TO TRAVEL. I HATE MONDAYS COS IVE GOT SCHOOL FROM 9AM-6PM. TALK ABOUT MONDAY BLUES... I CAN BELIEVE I AM GOING THRU 3/4 YEARS OF THIS CRAP. ITS HORRIBLE.

i hate it when im STARVING in the middle of the night and i cant go out to eat. (cos my mom doesnt allow and i wont allow myself to do that too). OMG I STILL CANT BELIEVE THAT SCHOOL HAS STARTED FOR 2 WEEKS, AND TUTORIALS ARE STARTING IN 2 DAYS TIME. TUTORIALS = HOMEWORK. HOMEWORK = WASTE OF TIME. WASTING TIME ON HOMEWORK = LESS TIME FOR MYSELF. WHICH MEANS NO MORE SUPPER.

AND I SUDDENLY HATE THE SIGHT OF MY LAPTOP BECAUSE LAPTOP MEANS LECTURE NOTES AND ASSIGNMENTS.

2007-08-15T01:38:00.000+08:00

i look so retarded. heh

2007-08-09T23:30:00.001+08:00

after one whole week of school ive turned 926783478924times darker. i cant believe it cos i skipped more than half of school and im totally burnt compared to others. ive finally decided on my 5th module which is some IT stuff (and im a complete IT idiot, i dont even know how to print screen) which means, GOOD LUCK TO ME. :D i cant log in to CORS to check whether i managed to get the mod but if everything goes well, i'll have a 4 days week! which means my days will be damn long with 6 modules. YES, 6 modules cos i failed my QET.

zac is a bigbro now! i havent seen the newborn baby yet but i heard that he is damn fat (4.2kg!!!!) with big bright eyes. omg i love babies.

anw, after movie, i managed to drag bf to watch fireworks with me. he doesnt fancy gg to crowded places but im sure its worth it, right bf? :) i love u so much, please trust me honey. <3

2007-08-03T01:28:00.000+08:00

i dont know why, i just feel so lonely all of a sudden. even though im making so many new friends right now, i feel like everyone close to me are disappearing. ):

2007-07-30T23:58:00.000+08:00

the lovely boyfriend made the girls at home happy with donuts from donut factory. :D i love his off days because it makes my heart smile from the moment i step out of the house to the moment i step back into the house.

2007-07-28T03:09:00.001+08:00

oh no why am i feeling this way? ADELYN CHAN S.K. PLEASE TELL ME THAT IM NORMAL. omg its a bestfriend little secret.

2007-07-27T23:50:00.000+08:00

my cute little boy who refuses to go for a haircut

2007-07-24T00:57:00.000+08:00

why? so many questions whirling up in my head.

the world is such an unhappy place with my existence.

R.I.P my trusted camera. ):

2007-07-19T23:54:00.000+08:00

mel is leaving soon and we had a little gathering.

pigs

siblings

2007-07-07T00:36:00.000+08:00

we celebrated jer's bday with a surprise cake.

looks like a pile of shit but taste real yummy.

the surprised birthday ~~boy~~ man.

im itching all over for the past few days and i suspect that its caused by the seafood feast we had with our colleagues at chompchomp. i need to go on a diet and i feel like going for a full body massage to pamper myself.

2007-06-26T23:36:00.000+08:00

I read a note my Grandma wrote
Back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat
And he showed it once to me
He said
Boy you might not understand, but a long long time ago
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none
But I loved your Grandma so
We had this crazy plan to meet
And run away together
Get married in the first town we came to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead
I found this letter
And this is what it said:

If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But i'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Until I see you again
I'll be loving you . . .
Love me

2007-06-24T00:45:00.000+08:00

i hate to feel that ive failed terribly.

2007-06-23T00:11:00.000+08:00

dim sum buffet brunch + bbq dinner makes me feel like a fat pig.

half of JMG.

but too bad, no photos for the bbq at night cos i brought out a cam with low batt.

for clara tan and tay hong siang

2007-06-20T00:22:00.000+08:00

long overdue photos!

3rd june

a lovely gathering with my family and annoying cousins.

some one please tell me why am i born so WHITE

4th june

im sorry but im very bad at taking photos. this has got to be one of the most eventful birthday meetup we ever had over the past 2 years. i took the skyrider without crying! clara tan should be proud of me. :D

do not try playing twister on sand

8th june

2007-06-19T01:04:00.001+08:00

today was a happy day even thou we didnt do anything much. :D

2007-06-17T01:41:00.000+08:00

2007-06-11T02:14:00.000+08:00

im suffering from insomnia + ive been getting bad dreams every time i fall asleep. and now im so afraid to fall asleep just to wake up feeling all uneasy in the middle of the night.

celebrated my bday throughout the past one week with my friends, family and my love. the actual day was a pretty normal one but im satisfied. :)

suddenly i feel like recently ive neglected alot of my friends. especially those who stood by me all these while and gave me so much strength. school is going to start soon and we'll have even lesser time to meet each other. y'all should know who you are and just to let u know, i miss you guys and i hope u'll understand.

sometimes i wish i have the courage to tell someone his/her flaws so that he/she will be able to change. because nobody actually knows their own flaws, they wont even realise it unless you point it out to them. for eg. if X has a bad character, why cant someone just tell X (which will probably hurt for X) about it and let X be able to change, instead of complaining about X to other people and nothing is going to change in the end. WELL, maybe thats life but i hope someone will tell me my bad points so i can actually change.

i am quite emotionless these few days. those little things that usually make me happy, dont anymore. i dont wish to know whats happening around me, i just stare blankly into space hoping that time will pass by quickly and i think its because of INSOMNIA. i think i need some sad korean dramas to stir my emotions a little so i can go back to my normal self.

2007-05-30T23:57:00.000+08:00

say hello rebonded hair. (and i do not look like a mop)

2007-05-30T13:21:00.000+08:00

look at what i found in my mom's phone

such a big boy now.

taken by my latest gadget in our comfy pantry.

2007-05-29T00:55:00.000+08:00

2007-05-27T23:29:00.000+08:00

i feel so bad i feel so bad i feel so bad i feel so bad i feel so bad x 10000000000000

my dearest got me an early bday present. i love it alot but I FEEL SO BAD. ): i feel like a evil woman who doesnt deserve it. well he is returning to work tmr and it makes me happy. :D

2007-05-27T04:28:00.000+08:00

freedom.

2007-05-20T22:53:00.000+08:00

the weekend with andy was just too short and omg i feel like the next five days are going to be hell for me. ): those few hours werent even enough at all and now he is going to leave for field camp. he is going to come back looking more like a stick and the 2kg which he gained from supper we had everynight is going to go to waste. i know i should stop whining but i cannot help it. why why why were the weekends so short. why why why is work so disgustingly unbearable without him. why why why i cant have my boyfriend around.

ahhhhhhhhhhhh im going crazy over everything.

2007-05-19T23:43:00.000+08:00

i miss studying in the library with you

2007-05-19T14:39:00.000+08:00

i dont know why things are turning out this way but i think im going to turn crazy if it carries on. it fucking hurts and i dont know what i can do make things right. sigh.

happy 2mths baby. youre so perfect in my eyes.

2007-05-19T03:53:00.000+08:00

did the colorgenic test
You are so adamant at this time, you are not willing to concede to anything. You are dictatorial with your own ideas and the way you are feeling and there is little that anyone can do to make you change your mind, or to be able to persuade you to make concessions or to accept any compromise.

You are a leader in every sense of the word. You know where you are going and you know what you need to do in order to get there. You exercise an inherent initiative in overcoming obstacles and difficulties. You either hold, or wish to achieve, a position of authority by means of which full control can be exerted over events.

You know what you want and you are very dogmatic and demanding - especially in your emotional demands. You have specific ideas and beliefs and if these beliefs are not realised you can become extremely frustrated. You may not be that perfect but you are looking for perfection with the perfect partner.

As of late, you have been experiencing untold stress and this is a result of continuous frustration. You haven't been taking care of all your physical needs and it's beginning to show. It would seem that you have a need to find someone to whom you can really relate - someone perhaps whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different - to be individualistic - to stand out from the common herd. Your inherent control of your sensual instincts is restricting your ability to give yourself to open up freely but this being on your own, being lonely, often makes you feel the need to give up some of your strict standards to surrender to the general flow - to be like everyone else; a part of the herd. Deep down you regard such instincts as weaknesses to be overcome. You would like to be loved or admired for yourself alone. You demand recognition and tender loving care.

There is that inherent fear that you may be prevented from attaining the better things in life - those things that you consider essential to your well-being. So you are prepared to try everything to prove to yourself that whatever you do or try will go wrong. This destructive attitude could come under the heading of 'a self fulfilling prophesy'. This belittling yourself is your method of disguising how hopeless and what a waste of time you feel that everything is. So now turn it about. As you 'think', so you are... So 'imagine' yourself successful. 'Pretend', 'act it out' and you may be pleasantly surprised at the outcome.

2007-05-15T00:03:00.000+08:00

im starting to hate this job. politics. actually i dont particularly dislike anyone but because everyone is complaining about everyone, i feel the need to complain to someone about everyone. i mean c'mon why cant they just stop being prejudiced or simply look at things with a broader mind. many times i just want to tell them to stop critisizing others and just fucking do some self reflections but i think i'd rather save my saliva and just be a listener.

this is really one good break that ive ever had. i mean, when did we ever have such a long break without any projects/tutorials, feeling so carefree that i feel like i can just book a air ticket and fly away to a faraway island. i want another holiday trip.

i needed to talk to you but even if you call back now, i wouldnt know what to say.

2007-05-13T23:27:00.000+08:00

from my special someone who is going to be deeply missed by me for the next two weeks.

2007-05-13T14:07:00.001+08:00

AIYERRRRRRRRRR.

I HATE RESERVICE.

2007-05-08T15:41:00.000+08:00

i did my nails yesterday. :) i never had such long nails before and they look pretty! i realised my nails can never grow long cos i am so rough. i feel so obstructed and its going to force me to become more ladylike.

i felt so accomplished by the end of the day cos
1. i bought new working shoes (and i finally decided to give it a bite before wearing it)
2. baby brought me to this nice nail salon and treated me to nice nails.
3. ive finally decided which phone to start saving for!
4. i made some prayers and i hope they come true.

i cant wait to finish my uni and have a proper job with a proper pay! a thousand a month is not enough to satisfy my wants. i want this bag i want that watch i want this phone i want that cam. urgh i cant wait!

2007-04-27T02:54:00.000+08:00

my man had a hair cut a few days ago and i couldnt stop laughing at it.

the first photo of him on my blog.

i felt so out of place at our company's dinner and dance last night, maybe because he wasnt around. but then again, we cant behave like normal even if he was around, so it wouldnt make a difference either.

please, i need some confidence.

just hold me tight, cos its gonna be a rollarcoaster ride.

2007-04-24T23:52:00.000+08:00

am i thinking too much?

2007-04-23T00:41:00.000+08:00

dont remind me, i know i put on weight.

200 pounds beauty is a MUST WATCH.

2007-04-21T23:02:00.000+08:00

im so worried. im so worried. im so worried. im so worried. im so worried. im so worried. im so worried. im so worried. im so worried. im so worried. im so worried. im so worried. my head is spinning so badly its not looking very good. i really want to get into NTU ACC! where is my LETTER?????????? somebody save me. ):

2007-04-20T01:17:00.000+08:00

life is so mundane now and i feel like doing something exciting like trying to conquer my fear of heights, or something meaningful such as helping out at a old folks home. BUT say say say say say also no use cos i can never get things done.

you know you are in love with a person when your mood is deeply affected by him/her.

i highly suspect that it was xinyi who did this on IPS.

2007-04-19T00:00:00.000+08:00

i cant live without aircon. the sewage pipe BURST and hence the aircon couldnt be switched on, so we spent 8 hours in the shop without aircon and i thought i was going to die. IT WAS SO SUFFOCATING AND SMELLY.

this was the song that broke my heart and told me that you are no longer worth it for my love.

2007-04-18T00:59:00.000+08:00

ive never met such a loving guy like you.

2007-04-15T22:41:00.000+08:00

had my bro's bday dinner at some indian restaurant. tender mutton + tasty rice made the 4 of us happy. dont really fancy indian food but this is a really nice place to go to. but too bad i cant rmb the name of the restaurant.

happy bday boy

i love being next to him cos i feel tiny. :)

tayhongsiang just sent some love back to singapore island by giving me a phone call! :) poor boy he was telling me about how radical army life is, for eg. he has to march everywhere he goes until he doesnt rmb how to walk, he has to shout so much/loud that the entire earth is going to hear his voice if he shouts now.

i choose not to show my true feelings about this whole matter. there are so many reasons behind it and i dont know where to start from.

2007-04-12T01:29:00.000+08:00

I fell in love, in love,
With you suddenly.
Now theres no place else,
I could be, but,
Here in your arms.

^&@Q(*&@#&*(@#&(*)&&&&&&&@#@#%@#(^&^#@*(&#@*(&*#@#!@*)(!@)(*@!#*&$@$#T@#@#)(&#@ ALL I WANT TO DO IS TO LISTEN TO EMO MUSIC AND CRYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. I HATE BEING A GIRL, BUT I WONT WANT TO BE A BOY EITHER.

2007-04-11T00:43:00.000+08:00

xh is in tekong probably had his head nicely shaved already. now i have no more boy to whine to, to carry my bag/piggyback me when im tired, to tell me that im fat so i'll stop eating, to gossip with etc.

went to his house and bummed around today. :D went to vivo and was basically being a pig cos my mouth couldnt stop munching. met the girls in the evening and went to settlers cafe. clara tan accused adelyn and i for cheating and threatened to bring wanhua along the next time and cheat us back! we shall go back there on some random thursdays. :)

im going on a diet+frugal plan for the next whole week.

youre so fine u blow my mind!

2007-04-10T00:25:00.000+08:00

some photos for THX to grab before he enlist tmr. hello spaceship dont miss us too much!

2007-04-08T02:44:00.000+08:00

those words just pierce into my heart, i dont know who to trust and what to do anymore.

you give love a bad name.

2007-04-04T00:28:00.000+08:00

caught between the both of u. i knew this was going to come, but i didnt expect it to be so soon. this is the first time in my entire life that i think i cant be whoever you want me to be.

i cried over you today, because ilu and i know you're the one for me.

2007-04-03T00:49:00.000+08:00

i can never get things done. IM SUPPOSED TO CUT MY HAIR TODAY. im trying to con xh to cut his hair before going to army so we can go for a haircut together. :D

good day, and better days ahead! its time to SHOP!

2007-04-02T00:07:00.000+08:00

OMG omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg.
its either my weighing machine is faulty or my weight can fluctuate really easily. i cant believe i just put on 5kg within 2 weeks. am i fat or am i fat?

i feel like pasting this signage on my body. ytd i was waiting to cross the road early in the morning and i was surrounded with ppl smoking. it was really like ppl from the front sides and back. so i had to hold my breath and i almost died. :/ hold my breath also die, dont hold also die.

stop the rumours, cos they are so untrue

2007-04-01T00:10:00.000+08:00

things are beginning to fall nicely into place and hopefully there will be s smooth path ahead! :)

all smiles on my face. HEEHEE

2007-03-31T07:07:00.000+08:00

2007-03-31T07:00:00.000+08:00

and i feel so blessed.

2007-03-29T02:25:00.001+08:00

im sorry janet

2007-03-28T23:34:00.000+08:00

rara squatting in the middle of the road

caught mr bean with him. one word- LAME. the ending is so diao. he wanted to give me a surprise by getting me the katespade wallet but ended up the wallet is SOLD OUT. ): met ra and had dinner over at her place! :D:D:D i <3 home cooked food. thanks my dearest girl for typing the uni application thing for me! :)
he came and picked me after that and we went for supper at ecp. after that we sat along the beach and listened to the waves crest and fall. and of cos he didnt fail to sing next to my ears as if i am the only person who can get to listen to it. CHARMING VOICE. :D i fell asleep and felt so bad for wasting his precious time.
its amazing how we can see each other at work for more than 10hrs a day and meet up after work or on our off days and still cant get enough of each other. its really a joy to have him in my life even thou theres a barrier thats preventing any.. should i say, progression.

2007-03-26T23:52:00.000+08:00

despite the age difference, i find so many similarities between us. ive never felt so happy in a long time, but thats something i gotta worry about.

2007-03-25T23:51:00.000+08:00

photos up soon.
happy birthday jelaine! :D (SOON SOON SOON)

2007-03-20T21:47:00.000+08:00

ure like superglue, i'm stuck onto you.

2007-03-18T04:30:00.000+08:00

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's gotta be something for my soul somewhere

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you'll help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

im so silly, its obvious that it wont get anywhere, but it just cant stop.

2007-03-17T23:38:00.000+08:00

2007-03-17T04:12:00.000+08:00

finally caught a nice movie after so long!

it seems that its been a long time ever since i talked to ra and meeting her tonight was like a major catching up session. i think my mouth didnt stop moving at all. im so glad that i took leave today or else i'd have missed out quite alot. HEEHEEHEE

2007-03-14T03:20:00.000+08:00

im so lost so lost so lost so lost

2007-03-11T23:36:00.000+08:00

lovely cupnoodles!

my polo scotts boyfriend

jeremy irritated me during work today. i got so pissed off i sms him to fuck off. omg im so brave i cant believe that i actually sms my supervisor such stuff, but he got a shock and he went down... and drew this for me and mms it to me.. which makes me forgive him. haha. :D

2007-03-10T23:36:00.000+08:00

sighworksucks!

im so tired. i think customers are either blind, cant read or simply very lazy.
the price tag says:
usual: ____
NOW:________

but they love to ask us "is the price here already discounted", "is this after 60% off?" yada yada they are so blind. the board says, UP TO 60% off. i feel like pulling their throat out. its so fucking annoying.

im so stupid. ):